why are the notes so long these days?

-screams-
We really need a day together.
Not at school or wherever.
We can never be ourselves anywhere else but here or at your house.
^__o
Bleh.

I just miss spending that kind of time with you.
And if I didn't see you on certain days at school, I'd probably be going mad here.

Your blog....was really cute.
Oh, how I love you.

Someone's jealous of us.
Kat, to be exact.
Something about raw love and blahblah.
I guess you'd have to understand who she is and what she's dealt with/what she does.
But....yeah.
-_____-

So...you're doing stupid things?
What stupid things?
o_O

Yes, my class went well.
Teacher's....a little bitchy but otherwise things are fine.
Hmm, it'll be interesting.
-__-

I need to read for religion, but the only thing I can focus on right now is you.
And us.
And how much I love you.
And miss you.
And just want to curl up beside you and watch you sleep, let you hold me, run my fingers through your hair, kiss you......
-screams-

Well, now that I've got that out there...
I don't know.
I guess I'll go read before I end up behind, already.

I better get a little time with you tomorrow between classes.
(:

ILOVEYOU<3

i amuse myself.

I was just reading through the notes I've written to you.
And I love how I always say I'm not coming back.
And here I am.

You're irresistible, apparently.
(:

Just as a sidenote, Ashley's weirded out by Kat's "blessing" thing.
I'm still dying from that.
xD

iloveyou<3

. . .

I'm glad I got to see you today.
Even if it wasn't for very long.
And Kat was there.
.....she likes you now.
I came home and she said I "have her blessing."
O_____O
So.....
...I don't know what to say to that.
-facepalm-
I guess we can get married now?
....
I need help. xD

You need to realize that when you get to a certain point on the way home, your phone cuts off.
You need to cut your conversations off till you get home.
xD
I can't get half of what yer saying because you apparently don't realize you're breaking up.
...like that day in walmart.
-shakes head-

I really hope I didn't wake you up with that stupid text.
-__-
You can kill me later if I did.
=/

So....question.
Not that you ever answer any of these questions on here.
But uhh.
Are you weird about being "together" in public?
You act a little different, timid even, when we're out somewhere.
Not saying we have to hang all over each other.
Haha.
It doesn't bother me, really.
I'm just curious, cause I get that feeling, and I don't want you to be all aldkhgiug or something.

Save me from the dentist tomorrow?
x____x

...Why do I always write the most pointless stuff, and you still like it?
O_O
I sound ridiculous.
Maybe I should stop writing these when I'm exhausted.
I know you're sitting there like ^__o

Blegh, I need sleep.
getoverhere. D:

koishiteru wa<3

becauseialwayshavetosaysomething.

Oh, I miss you.
D:

If you're still planning to go to that thing in WV, I definitely want some time with you before you go.
-sigh-

Seems like you had a decent day.
At least you don't hate your history class like I did.
I'm not even going there.
xD
And parking?
I didn't have any issue today, and I got there around 1:30 I think.
Oh well.

So what's up with the text thing from this morning?
Your stomach getting that weird feeling....
(:
Butterflies the size of elephants?
I always get those. -__-

lolz@yourfaceinyourblog.
Silly<3

This is pointless.
But chances are you're sitting there smiling anyway.
lolz (:

loveyou<3

justbecauseifeellikesayingthis.

iloveyou.

(:

Aaaaaand....

the fear is gone.
I have no idea why that even came up.
Lasted a couple days.
It was really random.
But it didn't bother me that much anyway, just baffled me.
You've given me no reason to fear anything.
Maybe it's just a natural reaction?
Cause you know, I used to always be scared something was gonna happen.
It's ridiculous is what it is.

Anyway, no worries.
You're safe.
I guess I'm safe.
I'm over it.
Blahblahallthatcrapp.
(:

Sooooooooooo.....
When are you posting that blog you mentioned a while back?
I'm seriously curious.
xD

....damn faces.
ITSAHABIT
=/
You're going to have to get used to them, you know.
-sigh-

iloveyoutimes49750294.
<3

imrunningoutoftitles.

Somehow I knew you'd still write a blog.
Bahaha.
...Not that you were in any condition for that last night.
You looked like you were ready to fall in the floor.
o_O

You make things easier for me to deal with.
With this family crap and whatever else.
Iuno.
I guess you just reminding me that you love me comforts me or something.
(:

You told me I need to watch Chumscrubber.
I guess I need to.
Hmm.

I'm glad you started using dA.
Now I can stalk you more.
...
Not really.
But it's nice to see some of your stuff.
Ha.

...I think you messed up yer url in the blog.
Or not.
o_O
I'm starting to think you shouldn't write blogs when you're medicated and exhausted.
-___-

Ehh.
You and that blog.
Just post it already.
You know, normally I'd be terrified to see what's in a blog about me.
Especially being at this point....not quite a relationship but pretty much?
....
You know what I mean.
But this time....I'm not freaking out.
I don't think I have anything to worry about.
If you prove me wrong by some ridiculous chance, I'm kicking you and then kicking myself.
That's that.
xD
I feel too confident about this to even say that without feeling weird about it.
....
That didn't make sense.
But I'm sure you still get it.
xD

Blahblahblah.
This is pointless.
I'm sure you'll end up laughing at me.
.....
(:

I need a shower.
So, as Mary says, I'm off like a prom dress.
.....
*cracks up*
(:

ILOVEYOUSOMUCH<3

!@#&%^#%(!%@$#%

SEX ON THE FLOOR?!?!?!
Oh god, we're insane.
But I love every moment of it.
(:

So we spent the entire day laying around in bed.
Bahaha.
Seriously, we'll never get anything accomplished if we live together.
xD
But I definitely had fun.
You're so silly.

Tell Victoria to go away.
>_<
She....weirds me out.
Idk.

Uhm, so Jared brought up a good point.
What exactly are we doing?
Like, yeah I know we've been telling everyone we're talking and blahblah.
I'm sort of waiting on you to figure out what to call this.
I mean, I see it as a relationship.
I don't see us running after anyone else anytime soon, and we spend every moment going <33
So you know.
Whatever floats your hippo, I guess.

Lalala.
Come over tomorrow so we can take pictures and whatever.
(:

I noticed your mood change.
When I got there you looked awful.
Like, I could tell you felt like hell, and all that crap.
But by the time I left you looked like you could run a marathon.
I don't think you felt it, but you definitely looked better.
So...
Was it the meds?
Or was it me?
xD
I know you wanted me to come over yesterday, so....you know.

I'm so tired.
-__-
getoverhereandstaythenightwithme.
(:

I love you!!!!











Damn this thing.
It always thinks I'm putting in HTML when I do <33
....
>_<

nagai.

....What a way to wake up.
I got the text from you that you left at like, 5 this morning.
Then I got up, and read your blogs.
.........
(:

I love you.
And I cannot even begin to explain how I felt when I read the two blogs.
You make me happy beyond words.
Really.
ad;ogja;dljgaAAAAHHHH (:

Let's make this work, yeah?
You. Me. Us. Together.
I think it's safe.
I really do.
(:

...and what song were you listening to?

getoverherenow.
iloveyou<3

Bliss?!?!

This evening/tonight was amazing.
(:
I really missed spending time with you like that.
*sigh*

I really want things to work out.
You know that.
And I think you do, too.
You were in a better mood than I expected you to be in, really.
Hmm...
I guess I thought you were gonna run off like last time, and be all AHHHNOOOOOOITSNOTRIGHT or something.
It tends to stay in your head, no matter what.
=/

Hmm....
My bed still smells like you.
It's nice.
So chances are I'll be able to sleep well tonight.
If only you were really here.......
*sigh*

I love you.
<3

just...

(:

spur of the moment...?

i miss having you beside me.
you know, us cuddling and whatnot.
hmm....
=/

getoverhere.
(:

and totally random, but why do you like reading these so much?
i mean, i'm sure they make you happy or something.
but something tells me there's more to it.
^__o


iloveyou.

nozomu.

It's 3:47 am.
I laid down around one, and I'm still awake.

I kind of wish you were here.
Cause I know that would help me relax more.
There's always been something about you, or your presence or whatever that left me calm, and I could always sleep better.
I don't know.
I just want to curl up beside you and be able to sleep.
That's all my mind seems to be focusing on right now.
*sigh*

I still want to know what you contemplated about us earlier today.
Just so I can get some idea of what's going on inside your head.
I can't read your thoughts unless I'm in front of you.
x__x

akldgkl;adgjlkad.
iloveyou.

uh.

I meant what I said in the text.

Are you sure of yourself?
Because I don't think you are.

Whatever you're feeling, I don't think you should hold back.
And I'm not saying that for my sake.
I'm saying that for yours, too.
Before you go insane over this situation again.
Maybe something could work out.

Remember how you said it was wrong and right the last time?
And I said if it felt right, it probably was right?
...
I still mean that.

...........

^__-

Uhh.
I think things must be coming back slower for me than they are for you.
But they're coming back.
Like, each day, I feel more and more of the old feelings.
I remember more.
I don't know.
I just got that stomach thing I used to get when I'd think of something, or whatever.
Kinda like the butterflies the size of elephants, but not quite.

Hmm.....
What are we gonna do with ourselves?
xD

And while I'm here...
I'd just like to know what you thought about today.
Since we usually talk about those things, but you weren't on, and you obzly don't like texting.
xD

Hmm....
<3

xoxo

I was waiting for that.
(:

hmm...

Hmm...
You're welcome.
(:
Sometimes I wonder what you do without me.

I'm going to try to keep you from falling down again.
I know you'll be okay.
You know it too.

We need to spend some time together or something.
Like you said, one of those after hours sessions or something.
I like those.
-__-

Hmm...
Save me from this party.
Just come in and kidnap me.
(: