the message.

Well, that wasn't the message I was expecting.

Actually, I'm not entirely sure what I was expecting.

>__>

I guess we'd just need to sit down and talk things out, like you said.

Because there's a difference between the Paganism books and the Spirit Medicine book.

And I'm not exactly Pagan, but more spiritual in the Native American sense.

Unless you mean we help each other on our spiritual journeys, whether it's the same path or not.

....

Anyway.

Let's hang out soon.

Give me your schedule or something, and let's try to find a day to go to the river and discuss things.

I think that's what I need, after this week.

I know you haven't seen my blogs since you're locked out of your account, but I think you've got a general idea of what I've been through.

Ugh.

Oh, and why wouldn't this be grand?

o_O

ps; Professor Schmidt is NUTS.

I'm staying in his class simply because it's hilarious to listen to him.

Ryan, Alex, and I all giggled our way through the class.

Err.

i miss you.

come save me.

today's been horrible. D:

a rush of blood to the head.

Yes, I'm running out of titles.

Yes, that's a Coldplay song.

xD

Anyway...

I really hate when I'm at Angel's and we have conversations.

Like, I love talking to you.

But just being at Angel's makes me awkward, cause I like being in my own space when we talk.

It helps me think easier.

Relaxes me.

You know what I mean.

Plus the internet's stupid here.

Anyway.

So I meant what I said earlier about being curious about the blog or whatever.

And whatever you do, it's your choice.

I'm not going to force you to write it, especially while you're feeling all adklghadgatsryg.

But it was definitely depressing when I got home from KD and didn't see a blog.

Not gonna lie.

I was waiting for it since the moment you mentioned it.

Guess that's a sign I shouldn't get my hopes up. xD

Sounds stupid, I know.

I just really enjoy what you have to say about things, and especially if it's directed towards me.

I still don't know what to think.

It's kind of making me scream on the inside.

But I don't think it's all too bad, cause you seem okay with me.

Oh well.

I'm thinking too much again.

Mind's on overload.

I really love how I say I never post on here cause I don't need to write notes to you anymore, and I've been posting shit.

Thanks a lot xD

Feel better soon, dammit!

(:

<3

ksfnglksjsg.

Tell me how the hell I'm awake at 7:45 after staying up half the night watching movies and flopping around trying to sleep the other half of the night.

This is going to be one hell of a day.

I couldn't really stop thinking about what you said last night.

About your blog tonight being a message to you.

I mean, I don't really expect a novel or anything.

Or anything earthshaking.

But my curiosity's got the best of me this time.

I have no idea whether to be worried or not.

I don't know if it's good or bad.

I just don't know.

I guess I should try to push it to the back of my mind for the day, seeing as every time the thought pops up, my stomach starts flipping and whatever.

Ugh. -__-

As for your message about your spiritual journey...

I really hope we can guide each other.

As long as we do that, I think things for us will be okay and we'll have a better understanding of each other in the spiritual sense/world.

Not that we don't understand each other already, but whatever.

Uhh.

Idk.

(:

blahblahblah.

It's funny how we'll hang out, or talk a lot one day, then get really quiet for a while.

Then end up hanging out again.

We're so weird.

I really have nothing to say.

I just figured I'd give you something to read, since you complain about me not updating xD

To be honest, I don't even think about this thing anymore.

It was more or less my place to confront you, and I don't really need to do that anymore.

I don't see why we would need to confront each other about anything.

I don't think we're involved in each other's lives enough now to bitch about stuff.

Even though we're always involved. 

....

God why are we so complicated? xD

Tonight was....amazing?

Or something close to it.

I had a lot of fun.

Thank you for introducing me to Tara Thai.

It was really good.

And I'm glad I got to share my river spot with you.

And our conversation was lovely.

You understand. You listen. I can breathe when I talk to you, instead of worrying about what you're thinking or whatever.

(:

It's backwards, yeah yeah, I know.

Haah.

We need to get together one day soon and smoke.

Just us.

We need to hang out more, I think.

But not too much, or we'll end up killing each other again xD

I'll find you some of that wicca/paganism stuff, if you want.

And whatever else you might want.

Just let me know.

Oh, hey.

Next time I come over, can you not forget about calling me in?

Silly.

(: